New Year's Resolution :]

WOW! 2k8 is almost done in a few hours ! Can you believe it ? Lol .

So here's what I want to be able to accomplish for 2k9 . :D

• I want to be a better daughter. Hm . I don't think that I've been the best daughter I know I can be this year. I want to make that up next year. I'm going to follow through with this. I don't like that feeling of disappointing my parents or family. It's just sad. So I'm going to be the best daughter I can be. (:
• Starting January 5,2009 No Ne-yo for two weeks. Grr that's going to be hard for me. I love listening to Ne-yo. His music makes me happy. Why am I doing this to myself you ask ? All for a bet. Haha. I'm going to stay strong and win it. (:
• Learn how to play the piano and guitar. Or at least try to play it. I want to be able to have the talent of playing these instruments while singing to it. I want to make people go :O. When they see I can be talented. :]
• I want to improve on my singing. To me, I can sing. Well everyone can sing. But I want to sing GOOD. That's what I'm going to work on this year also. I'm going to work on my singing. Hopefully it'll work out well . (:
• I want to improve on my personality. This next year I'm going to be nicer. I'm going to be more respective to people. I'm going to be a better person. Notice how I'm not saying "Hopefully". Saying that is not going to get me anywhere. I'm going to do this instead of saying hopefully.
• Speaking non-stop Tagalog at home. My parents have been wanting me to speak only tagalog at home for soooo long. I'm going to give it a try. I'm probably going to stutter and mess up on my words a lot. But hey. At least I'm trying right? That's the only way I'm going to learn. By my mistakes.
• Become a friendlier person. This coming year, I'm going to be friendly. Friendlier than before. Not liek super duper friendly that it's creepy. But friendly enough to make more friends.
• I don't want to doubt myself as much. This time, I'm going to become more confident. I'm not going to look at myself so low. I'm going to boost my self-confidence. :]

I have more but it's going to make you guys go :]? haha So chyea.

Have a safe and fun New Years! :P

Take care and see you all next year XD.

2k8 ! (:

First off, let me wish you all a Merry Christmas. (:

Too bad this blog isn't going to be about christmas. Lol. It's going to be my personal reflection of this year. :]. 2008 feels like it just came and went. It's amazing how fast time can go by . It feels like yesterday I was celebrating New Year's with my family. Now here I am a year older. A year somewhat wiser. Blogging about a year that felt just flew right by. This year has had it's ups and downs. But doesn't it always happen like that? One moment you feel like you're at thee bottom. Then you feel like you're on top of the world and thinking about how happy you are.



This year I personally, lost some stuff, but I also gained. I lost another uncle this year. But I'm thinking about the positives. I know that he's happy up there in heaven with his parents and his brother. The thought of that makes me happy. I lost other things also, but losing those things allowed me to gain more knowledge. I learned not to trust people that easily. It has taught me to take life slow, that there isn't a need to rush or get into things. I learned so much this year. I'm glad I did. I also learned how to learn from my mistakes. I'll say, I'm not proud at some of the things I have done this year, but I'm very thankful that now I know that what I did was wrong and that when I have to encounter those type of situations again I'll know what to do. To those who have hurt me this year, thank you, for you have made me stronger. (:



This year may have been sad and bad for me sometimes. But I got through it. I'm glad that I had my family and friends helping me get through this year. I may have lost a relative or friend but I got over it. I may have lost alot of things. But hey, I gained. I've been blessed with a new relative and new friends. Thanks to this year I'm believing in the saying "When a door closes, a new one opens." I've lost alot this year. But I've been able to gain or re-gain. I'm glad that this year has taught me a lot. I think I'm actually starting to mature now. My perspective on life has changed. Back then I would always be thinking of all the negatives in life. I would be wishing for something that I don't have. Now, I'm thankful for whatever I have in life. I don't really wish for things anymore. I'm just glad for what I have. I don't want to lose the things I have so I appreciate them/it while I still can.


2k8;; I've gotten hurt alot this year. But I've learned from it. It could've been the worse year, it could've been the best. All I know is I'm glad that I've gotten through it all. Who knows? Maybe next year will be better or worse. I just know that I'll get through it. (:

Next blog will be the last blog written in 08' >___<
-April Maii <333 (:

Music :]

I would like to dedicate a whole blog about music. Now I know most of you are thinking, "Why would you do that?". I'll tell you this. Why wouldn't I make a blog about music? I mean music is pretty much my life. Haha. I know this will seem like I have no life. But I pretty much have music playing 24/7. Either from the radio, my computer, my Ipod, my phone, etc. I love listening to music.

Music can set my mood at any moment. I can pretty much find a song any mood type. When I'm sad and I have no one to talk to all I got to do is play music and I'll feel better. I love finding new music or re-discovering old ones. It's like finding hidden treasure. :] Finding music is always fun. Especially finding music that I fall in love with. Some songs are so addicting that I have to listen to them over and over again. I won't get tired of that song until I listen to it over 100 times. [[It's true. Haha. I didn't get tired of the song Mad By Ne-yo until the 113th time I listened to it. I counted. :P]] Music has been sooooo addicting to me. It's my way of getting high. I don't get high off of drugs, I get high off of music. :]

Songs are like people, you can't really understand them until you actually listen to them and try to understand their lyrics. You have to feel their beats. You have to get their history. You have to just feel the song. You might be thinking I'm a weirdo for comparing music to humans. But try it. Just maybe you'll understand me.

I love listening to music that I can connect to. Like listening to songs I can relate to. I can't really relate to songs about being in gangs or getting shot. Don't get me wrong I like the music I just can't really relate to it. I relate to love songs alot. Haha. I don't know why but I really do. I relate to songs made or sung by Ne-yo alot. I really do not understand why but I think it's just because he's a good artist. Hmm. Music that I can relate to are normally the ones that are on my playlists.


I'll write another blog soon, I don't know what it will be about. Hmm. Hopefully it's good.
-April Maii <33 :]

Who I really am .

Well chyea . Many people normally get the wrong first impression about me. They think that I'm a snob. That I'm a bad person . They think that I'm going to make fun of them or something. They think that I'm the type of person that will judge them and leave them in the dust. When the truth is, I'm not. I'm the type of person that will care about anyone. Okay, I exaggerated about that. I'm the type of person that will care about someone until they prove to me otherwise.

These people that think I'm a snob or something are the ones that I want to prove wrong. I try to be friendly. I try to be the girl you can say hi to in the hallways. I'm trying to be the type of girl that you can be friends easily with. I'm the type of girl that wants to be friends with everyone and hated by no one. I feel like I can achieve this. It's going to be hard but I'll be able to hopefully.

Some of my closest friends think that I'm very trustworthy and friendly. My friend whiteey thinks that I'm a an amazing and true friend. I don't know if she's just sucking up or not. :] hehe joking. Mih friends are the ones that are amazing. They can make me feel better anyday. I love them with all my heart. I can't believe that they think I'm a good friend when they are the ones that are all good friends.

Hehe I'll do some more blogging later :]
-April Maii <333 (;



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